Merry Meet :))))
Today I am submitting my final lesson for my first degree. It took me a week longer then I wanted it to but I am actually shaking right now as I am submitting it :)))) In this lesson I explored the various traditions of Wicca which I loved taking a closer look at. It seemed to help put things into perspective for me and also helped me to understand why I am drawn to things I am drawn to. One of the questions was to which traditions are you drawn to and why. I thought it appropriate to share my answer here. :)
I love the fact that Sacred Mists is ecletic and encourages us to learn about different religions and the different traditions. I definitely lean towards the Celtic tradition although until today I didn’t make the connection of why. J I am very in tune with nature and the fact that the Celtic tradition has so much emphasis on healing, magical properties of trees, plants, flowers, the elements and the fae is very comfortable to me. I have always been drawn to Celtic items, music, and folklore as well as Wicca though until recently haven’t quite understood why. Interesting to note that I recently had a past life regression done with a psychic in my area and one of the “lives” that came out was in Ireland I was a coven leader and a healer. J Could see it perfectly and it was absolutely beautiful where I lived. I also am drawn to Shamanism but this is an area I need to continue to explore. I have worked with some Shamanistic meditations to find animal guides and I loved them. I also like that they encourage each member to become their own leader. I also like the philosophy and the freedom within the Alexandrian tradition that “if it works use it”. I have found on my path that if I relax and meditate I seem to know what to do and what methods work best for me. So I love the freedom within the Mists to develop my own path.
It took me a little bit to write the 1,000 word essay on what it means to me to be a Priestess of the Sacred Mists. Although I must say it seemed to flow with me. I was quite comfortable writing it although I am nervous submitting it. I am going to put that here as well as I wish to have it as part of my journal. :))))
I am extremely proud to be a dedicant of Sacred Mists and soon be a Priestess of Sacred Mists. It is a journey that has taken me a bit over two years to complete. During this time I was able to explore the different wiccan traditions and discover where I personally fit in. I am constantly learning more and growing on my personal path. From the time I was little I have always had the desire to help others. Being a Priestess with the Mists will only help me to fulfill what I feel is part of my reason for being here this life.
I currently teach the Empath extension class and support thread. The sense of fulfillment I get from being able to help my fellow sisters and brothers of the Mists is amazing. Each day I wake up and I am blessed with a gift of love light strength and confidence that I love to help pass on. For with each person that I am able to help, my hope is that they will go on to help others as well. The world can indeed be a very tough place to be but I firmly believe that with each person a difference can be made. I do honestly believe that there are people here that are meant to bring “light” and hope to others in their times of need. Each time I am able to help guide someone it lifts me up as well. As a Priestess of the Mists I will be able to help more in guiding those who are members of the Mists and those outside the Mists.
One of the responsibilities of a Priestess of the Mists would be to grow within the craft. My entire life I have always been drawn to Wicca but was discouraged from following my heart. Two years ago I took a vow with myself, my guides, the Goddess and the Mists to learn all I could and find my own personal path. Since starting this journey I have experienced tremendous growth in my personal self. I can’t imagine not being a member. I love to learn and exploring all the different areas of the craft is something that I absolutely enjoy. I also love the ability to be able to help people with the knowledge that I am gaining. It has already made a difference in several people around me. I am able to teach people and help them because of the time I have spent studying and learning. A specific example of this was the ability to show my family what Wicca is about. That it is not “evil” as they previously thought and how well it actually suits our family lifestyle and how I was raised. I love that they are able to come to me now for assistance and accept and support me wholeheartedly. Their love and support helps to give me the courage both within and out of the Mists to be who I am. For the first time in my life I am able to be strong enough to follow my own path and my heart and I will eternally be grateful to the Mists for helping me find that path.
When I first joined the Mists I noticed several of my sisters who had the title Priestess of the Mists. I must confess I was quite awestruck by them for quite some time. However, as they helped me along my journey and opened their hearts and arms to me they helped keep my feet firmly planted on my path and are responsible for my sincere dedication to wanting me to be a Priestess with Sacred Mists. I can only hope to be given the honor to do the same for those coming in as well. I come before you with an open heart, open mind, and as much love and light as I can have and look forward to assisting more in the place that I have come to call home. I am completely aware of the impact that a Priestess can make upon a dedicant and what that dedicant can go on to become given proper love and guidance. I take great pride in knowing that for each Priestess that is out there, each person that is dedicated to the path, there is one more person out there trying to bring light and love to the world. Each person can make a profound different upon those around them. It always makes me think of the movie “Pay it Forward”. Each time you smile at someone they may smile at someone else. If you are kind to someone they in turn may be kind to someone else. The more people stopping to do this in the world the bigger difference we can make. The world is a lot less scary when you are surrounded by love.
By working together as a coven we can absolutely make a difference in the world around us. This I believe is the most important thing that every person within the Mists realize. You’d be amazed how much of a difference one person can make, one action, one moment. The more love and light that is put out there the happier and healthier the people of our world will be and the better off our Mother Earth will be. It is essential to preserve the land and animals, people, and gifts of nature around us. It is essential to our survival.
So I come before you, as a dedicant to the Mists, to ask to become a Priestess of the Mists. My heart is where it should be. I grow stronger each and every day, and I would love the opportunity to continue to develop that strength and assist the students of the Mists around me as well as the people I encounter on a day to day basis in the name of the Mists. It is a title I would be very proud of. I will assist in any way that I can. As a mother of two, homemaker and one who is self-employed I don’t always have as much free time as I would like but I know I will get more time as my life plays out. I will continue my work as an Empath instructor assisting the gifted students on that board as well as working with the Healing Guild. I am very proud of my work as a healer both within and outside the Mists and can only hope to get better at it as I move on my path. I look forward to working with all of you for a very long time. With much Love and Light.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Merry Meet :))))
On Saturday I had the chance to have a past life regression done. I was extremely nervous and anxious the day it was to be done. I couldn't help feeling like something not so pleasant was going to be revealed to me but I wasn't sure what. I had asked my guides for answers to several personal questions during the reading if at all possible. I thought for sure that past lives may be responsible for some things I am experiencing in life and wanted to see if that would ring true.
I got to the shop a half hour early and browsed around the shop as I was waiting. At the time of my appointment the shopkeeper led me to the second floor where there was a couch in a room where the regression was to be done. I actually caught myself pacing as I waited for Terri to come in to do the reading. As soon as she walked in the room I felt this incredible warmth. She asked if she had ever worked with me before as my energy felt familiar. I told her this was my first time. She was wonderful and made me feel at home quickly and explained what would happen.
I settled into the couch and got as comfortable as I could, knowing that I would only get the answers I seeked if I managed to relax and let myself go. She started guiding me through the meditation by taking me down a staircase. At the bottom of the staircase there were three doors and I was to choose one of the three. As I looked in the first one I didn't see much of anything. The second door I thought I saw a glimpse of forest but I wasn't sure. I was starting to get frustrated then I opened the third door. This door I saw tile on the floor or what I thought was tile on the floor, but the thing I noticed the most was a black swirl of energy that surrounded me right when I opened it. Each door was to represent a past life. She asked me which door I wanted to choose and I felt compelled to go through the third door.
She told me to walk into the door and asked me what I saw. The "tiles" on the floor were actually a sort of cobblestone path. She asked me what I was wearing and I was barefoot with a sort of white robe on. She told me to walk a bit farther and tell her what I saw. I was surrounded by grass and some trees off to the side. I was trying to quiet my mind and concentrate on what I was seeing. She told me as I walked up the path that I would see my best friend. I stood there and waited for a minute and then I saw her. She told me to listen to what she had to say. The girl had blond long wavy hair and really really blue eyes. She was very excited telling me about some class with animals that was posted on the board and would be held in the town that night and was wanting me to go see. As she told me this she pointed up the road and I could see a town up in the distance. It was actually quite similar to a town I have seen in a dream before. Definitely quite old. Almost every building made of stone. It was nestled in this valley between the hills.
At this point the guide told me to go to my home. My home was somewhere away from that town. It was a one room home. It was made of stone. It had 1 window in the front, and a sturdy brown door. When she asked me where I was I told her I was in Ireland. The house was seperate from the town by a fair amount, yet I could see the town off in the distance. I was nestled in the rolling green hills. You could see the ocean from the front of my house. She encouraged me to walk inside the house and I definitely felt at home. It was only one room but filled with things that made me feel comfortable. There was a fireplace in the center of the room. A sturdy wooden table in the center. My bed was a sort of mattress on the floor in one of the corners. She asked me if I was married and had children. I was married but my husband had died in a hunting accident. She asked me if he was a fisherman but I thought he was a hunter. I had no children at that point. I most definitely worked as a witch or the equivilant. I was a healer. I worked with herbs and potions to help people out. I told her that I led a group but it was not looked fondly upon. I was a leader but one in hiding of sorts.
Right after this my regression started getting a little funny and I found myself getting shot between wherever I was in Ireland and somewhere that appeared to be on the East Coast of Massachusetts where I currently live. I told her what was happening and she told me to choose one. I felt like I was being pulled to what I was seeing in the colonial one. I was wearing a earthy toned brown floor length dress and standing outside of my house. It was a brown saltbox type house. One of those times I wish I knew my architecture better. It looks exactly like the house in this picture (the one in the center), it would just be reversed. The door was on the right hand side. There was a large garden and a fence to the left. From what I could see I was also located on the corner. At a sort of intersection. At the end of the road was the ocean. There was a road that went past my garden though along the long side of the house, and one in front of the house.
I was situated within the town. Again I could see the ocean from my porch. She told me to walk inside the house. An overwhelming sense of love and belonging I felt as soon as I walked in. I told her that I worked as a healer. I worked with herbs and making potions for people and also did some divination work. However I had to be careful as it wasn't always looked fondly upon. My hair was very long but I had to have it up all the time I told her. I was married to a man whose name began with the letter C. He was a fisherman. I had one child, a son, named Cole fondly enough lol :) I'm not sure if that is actually his name or if it was just that I was so floored during the regression that my son was definitely my current son Cole. That was one of the answers I had been seeking. He did not look like my son does now. My son is only two and in the regression my son was 6. His eyes were very very familiar though and his energy was unmistakeable. Most definitely my son. I then told her that my husband had passed on in a fishing accident at sea when Cole was 6 so it was just the two of us then. Somewhere during this scene it came out that I was living either in or near Gloucester MA.
The woman leading the regression asked me to fast forward 20 years and where was I. I was remarried to another man. I can't remember what she asked me I just remember the emotions and what I saw. It was an incredibly rich house and he was a very prominent man I was married to. I want to say he was the mayor of the town or something of that nature. Definitely had huge influence. However there was no love between us. This too is a hard thing for me to describe. I was in some sort of trouble in the past. I believe I was to be hung for something to do with my healing or witchcraft. By marrying this man it cleared my name and allowed me to stay alive. He saved my life. However he was a very very controlling man. I could feel the resentment I had for him the second I stepped into that area of my life. I was extremely unhappy but making do to fulfill my end of the bargain for him saving my life and living my life so that my son would have the best life possible. All of a sudden what I was seeing shot forward and I was in a totally different place. I was with this man, my husband, on some carriage ride. He asked me to get out of the carriage onto this bridge in the middle of the woods. It was a very rickety bridge. Very small over a small river in this heavily wooded area. I thought he was wanting me to see the water. As I turned sideways however I saw this look of pure love an hatred at the same time come across his face. I will never forget those eyes. He was angry with me because I was unable to love him and I should for him saving my life. I remember protesting and trying to calm him and I saw him take a rope from behind his back. I knew right then that was it. I started saying out loud he killed me, he killed me. I backed up in the regression and saw him take my life by strangling me and tossing my body into the river below the bridge. I saw my body just floating there.
As far as I can tell it was found out that I was murdered. I said I was buried properly and my son knew about it. I am trying to search the information in the Gloucester area to see if I can find out anything about a man murdering his wife in that time range. It should be somewhere round 1810 was the date given. Hopefully maybe I can find some information :))) I was told not to overanalyze the reading though as they knew I would lol :)))))
Friday, September 3, 2010
Please set me free, allow me to be
Remove these shackles that you have binding me
Feel the love and light that shine from me
Stop drowning me in your sea of negativity
I beg of you to set me free
My wings, but alas they are still tied
I long for the day when I don't wish to hide
Allowed to be as I was intended
Allowed to be ....... me