Merry Meet :)
So I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately. It has actually crossed my mind several times that in order to finish this final exam for my Priestess degree not only am I getting the written version but the life version as well as the things being thrown at me the past few weeks have been unreal and made me question pretty much my entire life. Somehow I know that when I sort it all out I will be much stronger for it though. A similar thing happened to me when I received my initial Reiki attunement but this time it seems much stronger.
It is my belief that we all come back here to learn a lesson in life before we go back to the other side. For the past few years I've been actively wondering what mine was. Was it to learn how to be a better healer, learn to work as a medium perhaps, maybe I'm to be a guide for others to help them find their way. I've meditated on it, asked my guides for answers and pondered it endlessly. But never so much as I have in the past few weeks. Since receiving my final written exam to become a Priestess it's been thrown in front of my face nonstop. Ok you can tell me now, is this suppose to happen? *looks around* :))) lol Part of my exam yes? lol :))
In any event I do believe I have my answer for why I'm here and what I'm to learn and the fact of the matter is it's so simplistic it's beyond complex. If you can follow that. I need to learn how to love. Scary thought eh? Something that is suppose to be so natural so simple, has been anything but for me in this life. Funny too I don't believe I'm alone in this life quest.
As an empath I feel so many emotions from people, animals, surrounding etc so how can it be that I have one of the most important emotions in life so muddled up. There are so many different levels and types of love out there if you get right down to it, it can make your head spin trying to define them all. I know if I could work it out properly I would relax and be a much better person as well.
Not only do you need to know all the different types of love but you need to know how to handle each one appropriately. Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball that could give me all the answers in how to handle each relationship, but I rely on my intuition working to sort out how to be in each relationship. I do know one thing that I feel as if I am still walking alone. I am still learning to love self so that I may love others the way I should. I was told that you can't have that perfect lifelong match with another person until you can learn to effectively love yourself. I know I have come a long way but I still have so much farther to go on my journey.
I need to learn how to love..........
Love and Blessings ;)